When I got to my parents house late Christmas Eve I was told that my brother's girlfriend's brother was killed that afternoon in a snowmobiling accident. We just love their family and so it is a really tragic thing, especially the day before Christmas. She found out while she was at our house and has been in a state of shock ever since. She is questioning why this would happen to her family and is really mad at God. We have no idea what to do. This is the fourth death I've been tied to since the semester began and it never gets easier and you still never know how to comfort those who need it.With the death, Christmas, family, etc, I have been thinking about my future a lot. It seems like that is the big question now, "Rachel, what are you going to do after you graduate?" I have no idea. Having ideas and having concrete plans are very different. My dad wants me to stay in Utah and buy a house....I don't think I'm ready for that. On the other hand, I don't know what I'm ready for...other than a social life.