For me, trust is the biggest part of every relationship. It can be a romantic relationship, one with family or even friends. The same rule applies to all of them. I have been burned by many people throughout life and I don't think that I'm different than anyone else because we all suffer betrayals and heartache at the hands of friends and lovers. (Yes! I finally said "lovers" on my blog!) I chose the picture from Aladdin because twice he asks her, "Do you trust me?" and with that, she is able to find out his true identity, leading to true love, marriage and several awful straight-to-DVD sequels.
My personality is one that is very forgiving, often times too forgiving because I get hurt time and time again. With good friends, family and the boys I date, I am very quick to forgive. Friends and family will see the hurt they have caused, mend it and the trust is restored to it's original brilliance. The boys I date have seen the hurt they have caused and may try to mend it, will often creep back in my life, I will forgive them and the trust is somewhat restored. Here's the problem. With those boys I am quick to forgive but the trust is damaged. I don't like the feeling of not having complete 100% trust in someone. It's unsettling. I can't act like myself when that's the case, I am very guarded because the trust isn't there. Anyone who knows me knows that I need to be free to be me and I am definitely not one of those guarded personality types. Unless the trust is not there. That leads to more confusion because the guy thinks now I'm not interested or not interesting because I'm acting different and ta da! - Rachel gets dumped again! (It has happened more than once, I assure you)
So, my predicament...where can I find a guy who is going to be vulnerable and open with me and let me be free to be me?