Thursday, March 24, 2011

And So It Is

Remember this? And this? 
(you absolutely have to read these to make any sense of this post)

Well guess what? I became the exception! I did! For two months I have been dating a truly wonderful guy. He hurt me a bit before (that second post) but came back with a vengeance and better than that - he came back with sincerity. He is the only guy that is currently in the "best friends" category, and believe me, that's not an easy group to join. He challenges me, he is MUCH smarter than me, he inspires me to be better, and he's just plain 'ole great (great is kind of a big deal in my dictionary). 

And tonight we broke up. 

Here's the thing, you can meet someone who meets all of your "criteria" and even introduces you to new "must haves" but when it's not there you have to recognize that. We luckily both feel this way. I am not in love with him and he is not in love with me, even though we're best friends. Mutual, phew! How long do you date before you just have to throw in the towel? Two months ;) We tried, we love each other like good friends do, but that wasn't enough.

I'm disappointed. I'm suffering my first heartbreak because I wanted to fall in love with him. Life with him would be one grand adventure. You can't force it though - you can't force the love, and this I know for sure. I'm grateful for him and for who he is - I wouldn't have him any other way. No, I wouldn't change a thing.

Tonight while we were sorting this out I just cried like a big baby because it hit me that now our relationship will change. When you're going through a mutual breakup where you have no bad feelings it doesn't hurt to be completely honest, right? So I was, I told him (through the tears) that I have already started to miss him. Boy, do I ever. 

And so it is.

This is a good thing, this is a right thing.


Jerilyn said...

In case you didn't already know: I heart you!

Dave and Lizzie Barrett said...

Oh my goodness, you are awesome. What a great attitude. Thanks for sharing. I hope you guys can find a way to stay best friends. :)

rebecca said...

i love you dear.

you dont need a man to complete you or make you happy. you are perfect and whole the way you are.


Lambini said...

oh rachel I wish I were there with you to wrap my arms around you! You are fabulous! and so Beautiful! Life has a funny way of bringing people in and out of our lives to help us prepare for what we really would be happiest with. So hard to realize in the moment, but you are AWESOME..BODACIOUS...HOT..LOVING..SENSATIONAL...and I have full confidence, THAT MR Husband IS going to be happy to meet you one day because of the experiences that have changed you :) LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU!

Amber said...

I'm sorry about this! Dating is such a pain and it kills to break up no matter how mutual/your choice it was. And I agree completely with Lambini that life has a way of bringing people in and out to help us prepare for what we really would be happiest with (ok, honestly I believe that, but after a slew of people that have been in and out of rehab and such....I don't really want to know what I'm being prepared for).

Anyway, you're awesome!