So, I'm up at 1:30am, dead tired and avoiding sleep. Blah. Please take this post with a grain of salt. Please.
I do not like planning things. I like having the ideas and then depending on a trusty support staff to carry out my ideas exactly how I imagine them. Planning can be incredibly stressful! Granted, this summer I literally have nothing to do but when I'm actually busy, planning is no fun! Also, sometimes I feel as though if I don't plan things, no one gets together and I like it when my friends and I can get together.
Recently I was able to spend the day not being responsible for any of the plans and it was odd. I had no idea what would be coming up next and it made me feel a little anxious. (I was also incredibly tired that day, therefore I was much more reserved than normal).
When asked about my change in attitude and I had to admit it was odd for me to give up control, this person also kindly reminded me that I dislike planning. Yeah, I got called out. Huh? Who am I?
Seriously. If I dislike planning but felt a bit uncomfortable not having any control....who am I? I suppose I should feel grateful that it was pointed out, but yuck, I thought I knew myself better than that.
Ok. I'm done, you may stop reading. No comments necessary. Love you.