So, I'm up at 1:30am, dead tired and avoiding sleep. Blah. Please take this post with a grain of salt. Please.
I do not like planning things. I like having the ideas and then depending on a trusty support staff to carry out my ideas exactly how I imagine them. Planning can be incredibly stressful! Granted, this summer I literally have nothing to do but when I'm actually busy, planning is no fun! Also, sometimes I feel as though if I don't plan things, no one gets together and I like it when my friends and I can get together.
Recently I was able to spend the day not being responsible for any of the plans and it was odd. I had no idea what would be coming up next and it made me feel a little anxious. (I was also incredibly tired that day, therefore I was much more reserved than normal).
When asked about my change in attitude and I had to admit it was odd for me to give up control, this person also kindly reminded me that I dislike planning. Yeah, I got called out. Huh? Who am I?
Seriously. If I dislike planning but felt a bit uncomfortable not having any control....who am I? I suppose I should feel grateful that it was pointed out, but yuck, I thought I knew myself better than that.
Ok. I'm done, you may stop reading. No comments necessary. Love you.
2 comments:
ha ha I feel ya-- I always get after neal for not planning things but then when he does plan things... I'm like-- well, if I would have wanted to do that, I would have planned it! It's rough!!!
I don't know about you, but I have the same symptoms, but I'm a self-diagnosed control-freak. I don't like to plan, but feel out of control if I don't. I'm a huge pre-plan, plan and post-planner (that means going over the details afterwords to see how I could have improved.) Instead of burdening myself with a label of control-freak. I've labeled myself instead as a "project person". It helps. :) By the way, this is Sister Linda Shattuck and somehow the blog has me signed is as Kat, but I don't get that, because she's never logged on to the computer here, unless I didn't know. I don't know how to get to MY profile! argh! help!
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