I'm feeling a little helpless lately.
I recognize how blessed I am and I want to make a difference in someone's world. I have worked in the Deaf community for a loooong time and I have never felt that my actions have made a difference. It can be (very) hard sometimes, but that doesn't mean that you give up the fight. This helplessness has been building for so long that I fear it is about to explode. That wouldn't be pretty.
I feel a very strong and distinct need to go somewhere and serve. Maybe I could serve within my community, both DC and the Deaf community, but I also want to get out of here so bad. Maybe it's the earthquake and tsunami in Japan. Maybe it's the amazing and inspiring youth lead revolts in Egypt and Tunisia. Maybe it's the siblings in far off places that are influencing my craziness right now, but it's not just about the adventure.
It's about the blessings.
Oh man, I've been blessed. Now it's time to bless someone else. Any ideas?
2 comments:
If I were you I would travel somewhere new to serve. I wish so badly that my husband had a job where we could move somewhere new, preferably international. There is just something amazing about going somewhere new and changing your perspective a little bit more. But.. if you feel the need to stay where you are, I am sure that there are SO many ways to serve there too. I am envious of all of your adventures. Keep me updated on what you end up doing!
I think you are ready to be a mom. (my opinion) I remember feeling similar feelings as you. I contemplated trying for an international reporting position or moving to costa rica and helping build communities or a start a business in thailand. I remember feeling I needed to do something bigger...I remember then I had a powerful feeling I was ready to be a mom. I was having the time of my life but I remember finally kneeling and telling Heavenly Father I was ready for the challenge of being a wife and mother and ready to dedicate my life to bringing his spirit to the earth in a Gospel centered family. I then made certain sacrifices to show my commitment. So many people look at marriage in such a nieve and small way. But its not. Its a huge commitment. You become a co-creator with God and the biggest responsibilities you will ever experience in this life are placed on your shoulders...conversely your greatest fulfillment.comes from that position. You are going to raise spirits in the challenging last day. I think you are going to be such a powerful mother and leader and you are ready to become such. Especially after the temple you have to be feeling something bigger beyond yourself you are about to embark upon. I think wonderful things are ahead for you!!! (once again this is all my opinion.) love you!
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